163: Sickly Sick

I just can’t believe this, I am sick! After two nights of busy exhibit ingress at Glorietta, my body finally gave up. And I just hate this feeling of being sick! Oh gosh, I never want this to happen again. I think it’s that softdrink that gave me a really upset stomach.

Hmm…

While I was eating at Jolibee Glorietta the other night, I was really sad during
that time. I was having my dinner alone, and I’ve been watching the people
around me. There are those who eat with their friends, their colleagues,
their dates and their family. While me, stuck there alone eating a good
set of meal on my own. I felt lonely again. I thought, what a busy
yet lonely days I’ve been having lately. I was writing on my planner, “ang
lungkot ko talaga… nobody who truly cares for me…”

After my meal, which I ate for more than an hour, I took a stroll
around Glorietta mall. I thought, it would be fun if I have someone to
walk with along. But then, who would I call up for a stroll?
Everybody is busy as well. I thought I go watch a movie at the cinema, but
I’m afraid I might get sleepy inside. So I sat by the bench and waited for
time to pass by. Setup starts by 9:00 pm.

When the Glorietta
Admin announced that the mall is about to close, I went to the activity center
and good thing I saw my office mate preparing for the setup.

As
soon as the others arrived, I did what I have to do. Moments later, I
suddenly felt dizzy, so I just sat quietly while supervising the carpenters what
to do, and where to place what. They were teasing me, I said, shut off I’m
not feeling well.

I knew I was so tired and won’t last for the
night, so I bid farewell and asked kuya John to call a cab for me. Walking
outside, I threw up! Yucky yuck! I was messing up in
Glorietta! I couldn’t help it. I was woozy and would like to throw
up everything I ate. I threw up twice at Glorietta. Total
humiliation!

When I got home, I went straight to
bed.

By 1:00 AM I woke up because of the dizziness. I called
for my mother, thru my mobile phone, and then I started throwing up again.
The next day, I didn’t attend to work, and I really felt terrible. I keep
of throwing up although I had nothing left to throw up because I can’t seem to
eat anything.

Today, I’m still here at home. I’m
planning to work after lunch. But I don’t know. I still feel quite
terrible.

Anyways, what I’m trying to say on this entry… the other night, when I’m grunting about ‘nobody cares’ thingy--- this upset stomach has taught me, that somebody still care for me. The way my mother was concerned about me yesterday, certainly was a nice answer for my grunts.

And

I’m really starting to worry about my health. And right now, I’m still thinking if I should go to work.

…and I think I won’t.